I believe that I have been in the longest and most important transition period of my life so far. I've had some emotional ups and incredible downs. Last week, John Mark and I were finally given some clarity on where this next year will take us. I'm not ready to talk about it all right now, maybe in the future... but since August of last year, there has really been no definite "tomorrow" for our first year together. We planned our wedding, I finished school... and we were married in December. We were supposed to have our answers in August of last year but they kept getting pushed until later and later until we finally reached May 9th of this year, just a week ago today. Clearly, this wasn't our choice to wait for our answer. We had to be patient. This waiting period has been extremely difficult, yet extremely good for us, I believe. It has taught us (specifically me) how to trust God when everything felt out of our control. We had to learn how to believe that no matter what the "answer" was, it was completely in God's hands and His plans for us as husband and wife. I've learned that it's imperative to trust God with everything.
The times I lost trust, I feel like I lost faith. I believe that as a Christian it's crucial to have faith, not only that Christ is our redeemer, but in that fact that His plans are pure and beautiful; no matter where they may take us. If we lean on our own ways (plans), we can never reach our highest potential. I believe that God knows our hopes and dreams and would never put us in a place that we cannot walk through, even if God has to carry us. There are so many places we cannot get to on our own. It's only through God's will and direction that we can stand in such difficult times. My plans are like sinking sand, but God's are set on a foundation that will never be swept away. I've learned in these 10 months that God will take us places we don't want to go (location, life, etc) but we could never learn what we learn if we haven't been there... I'm sure this all sounds vague but I believe everyone has his/her own experience something like this. All I can say is don't lose faith when God takes you to such hard places... He knows what he's doing in all of this. The promise that John Mark and I are confident in is this - Romans 8:28 (AMP)
"We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose."
